12am, i was in ktm and its at kl sentral. ktm departed from midvalley at 11 and after 1 hour, i'm still at kl sentral. it stopped there like 1 hour? ktm you PHAIL la boi. o0o. reached home about 1am.
prepared for work at about 7am. left house at 730. reached ktm at 750 knowing that there is a cancellation of train at 740 thus ktm is like full of humans =___= 8am train was late by 10 minutes and the train smells like salted fish, god knows these civilized pigs bathed or not. and the best part, the train was stationary for 30 minutes WTF? damn i feel like burning the captain alive. yah, great news, i was late for work. for the FIRST time. zzz work work work.
i never did any mistake. yes i'm damn sure. but the feeling of being accused when you are already not in a good mood, what is this? hey, it's definitely not me kays. thanks to the problem, i only get to go back 1 hour after my original going back time of 6pm.
slept in the train. i didn't know whether did it stop like previously as i was asleep. guess what, i was that tired due to nights of not sleeping well and i was THAT well asleep that i overshot sungai buloh and i took another train to get back to sungai buloh =___=
anyway, as the title is made this date, git ying, happy birthday! i'm sure you enjoyed though.
monkeymagic rawrrr!
Friday, June 25, 2010
down to earth.
what's worth living for?
i am not only tired of work but also life. i had bad and obviously, as dumb as i could get, i thought it would get better but for what i know, nothing is better. it only gets worse. issues everyday at work. results are disappointing. where are you when i need you?
if i could leave all these.
i would proceed.
leaving everything behind and be selfish for once and for all.
i just have no motivation anymore.
i want to tell you. always have, always will.
end my post with =(.
i am not only tired of work but also life. i had bad and obviously, as dumb as i could get, i thought it would get better but for what i know, nothing is better. it only gets worse. issues everyday at work. results are disappointing. where are you when i need you?
if i could leave all these.
i would proceed.
leaving everything behind and be selfish for once and for all.
i just have no motivation anymore.
i want to tell you. always have, always will.
end my post with =(.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
i ♥ you.
I love you, say we're together, you and me.
I can only give my life and show you all I am in the breath I breathe, I will promise you my heart and give you all you need if it takes some time and if you tell me you don't need me anymore, that our love won't last forever, I will ask you for a chance to try again to make our love a little better.
I love you, say we're together, say we're together.
I need you, I need you forever, you and me.
You say you hardly know exactly who I am, so hard to understand. But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside, if you read my mind and if you tell you don't need me anymore, that our love won't last forever, no, I will ask you for a chance to try again to make our love a little better.
I can only give my life and show you all I am in the breath I breathe, I will promise you my heart and give you all you need if it takes some time and if you tell me you don't need me anymore, that our love won't last forever, I will ask you for a chance to try again to make our love a little better.
I love you, say we're together, say we're together.
I need you, I need you forever, you and me.
You say you hardly know exactly who I am, so hard to understand. But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside, if you read my mind and if you tell you don't need me anymore, that our love won't last forever, no, I will ask you for a chance to try again to make our love a little better.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
itwywf
i am not a superman.
i have feelings.
if this is what you want.
i am speechless.
i can feel my stomach being corroded by gastric juice.
headache due to sleepless nights.
waiting and still waiting.
is this what you wish for?
i have feelings.
if this is what you want.
i am speechless.
i can feel my stomach being corroded by gastric juice.
headache due to sleepless nights.
waiting and still waiting.
is this what you wish for?
Friday, June 18, 2010
witaa?
i'm being bothered by something. it's lingering in my head and it just can't go off. this feeling is not good =( thanks to a video that i watched. and now i feel bad? guilty? haihhh i could be happy few minutes ago but after that happy moment, i am really down. how come mood can change that fast? i want to tell my feeling out, but i just don't know how to put them in words. keeping something within yourself doesn't feel good. appreciate things when you have the chance and not regret when you lose it.
is it worth to stick to your principles and be stubborn? will anyone understand you? or they are just trying to read you rather than understanding you? read me first to understand me and when you understand me, you don't even need to read me. huh?
i'll be start working on the 21st which is this coming monday. o_O it's like, only 2 more days? omfg. my brain says work, but my heart says play.
i want to play more badminton! i went for badminton yesterday but i want more!! damn i like badminton. maybe because i feel i'm improving?
roflmao.
is it worth to stick to your principles and be stubborn? will anyone understand you? or they are just trying to read you rather than understanding you? read me first to understand me and when you understand me, you don't even need to read me. huh?
i'll be start working on the 21st which is this coming monday. o_O it's like, only 2 more days? omfg. my brain says work, but my heart says play.
i want to play more badminton! i went for badminton yesterday but i want more!! damn i like badminton. maybe because i feel i'm improving?
roflmao.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
i want to be the reason you smile.
if you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they are supposed to be there.
anyone can make you smile, many can make you cry but it takes someone really special to make you smile with tears in your eyes.
you know you're in love when the hardest thing to say is goodbye.
some say you only fall in love once but every time i hear your voice, i fall in love all over again.
sometimes i wonder if life is really worth it, then i look at your smile and i know it is.
i'm jealous of every person that has ever hugged you, because for one moment, they had my whole world in their arms.
one day i caught myself smiling for no reason, and then i realized i was thinking about you.
i was matching each star to a thing i love about you. it was fun, till i ran out of stars.
trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
loving you is like breathing, how can i stop? once i dropped a tear into the ocean, the day i find it is the day i'll stop loving you.
meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.
you'll never understand how much i love you, and i'll never understand why.
anyone can make you smile, many can make you cry but it takes someone really special to make you smile with tears in your eyes.
you know you're in love when the hardest thing to say is goodbye.
some say you only fall in love once but every time i hear your voice, i fall in love all over again.
sometimes i wonder if life is really worth it, then i look at your smile and i know it is.
i'm jealous of every person that has ever hugged you, because for one moment, they had my whole world in their arms.
one day i caught myself smiling for no reason, and then i realized i was thinking about you.
i was matching each star to a thing i love about you. it was fun, till i ran out of stars.
trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
loving you is like breathing, how can i stop? once i dropped a tear into the ocean, the day i find it is the day i'll stop loving you.
meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.
you'll never understand how much i love you, and i'll never understand why.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
idwtwteiigtts
what's happening? bad news and bad things happening in the early of june. most recent one i really don't know how to deal with it. i felt kinda helpless. it was shocking though. i'm really sorry to hear that. i hope you're doing fine.
at 1 point of life, will you feel that nothing is meaningful? everything is dull? for a moment i felt that and i started to appreciate things more than ever and 1 thing i would definitely treasure is my gf. i ♥ you.
world cup has began and south africa vs mexico match was just so so. argentina go go.
1 of my high school teacher just passed away and i felt so strange of this. this feeling is hard to describe. probably the way she died was kinda tragic and unexpected? anyway, rip.
ohya i went for job hunting today in midv. went into shops like nike and tough jeansmith but i still think the pay in robinsons is relatively higher. not to mention, i did not fill in any application form because i worked at the same company last year before uwe and now i just contacted my former supervisor which now is the floor manager o_O he said it's no problem going back there to work. good news. i could start working as soon as this coming week?
after a while, you learn the difference between holding a hand, and falling in love. you'll learn kisses don't always mean something. promises can be broken just as easily as they were made, and as hard as it is to believe, sometimes goodbyes are forever.
monkeymagic
at 1 point of life, will you feel that nothing is meaningful? everything is dull? for a moment i felt that and i started to appreciate things more than ever and 1 thing i would definitely treasure is my gf. i ♥ you.
world cup has began and south africa vs mexico match was just so so. argentina go go.
1 of my high school teacher just passed away and i felt so strange of this. this feeling is hard to describe. probably the way she died was kinda tragic and unexpected? anyway, rip.
ohya i went for job hunting today in midv. went into shops like nike and tough jeansmith but i still think the pay in robinsons is relatively higher. not to mention, i did not fill in any application form because i worked at the same company last year before uwe and now i just contacted my former supervisor which now is the floor manager o_O he said it's no problem going back there to work. good news. i could start working as soon as this coming week?
after a while, you learn the difference between holding a hand, and falling in love. you'll learn kisses don't always mean something. promises can be broken just as easily as they were made, and as hard as it is to believe, sometimes goodbyes are forever.
monkeymagic
Friday, June 11, 2010
wiiidk
haizzzz
that says it all? what is important anymore? your feelings are just dead. negative. don't bother. why and who matters? i got no idea. what i feel is no longer felt. i'm immune? numb? i bear every way you treated me. is not good enough? that's the best i could do. i'm sorry for my imperfections.
being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. it's just that you decided to look beyond imperfections. i've been trying to work that out but i failed. yea i failed. happy or not i'm still myself? no i'm not.
would you be there when i need you? idk. would i be there when you need me? i hope so. can't you see all that i've done?
it's normal? no it's not. i'm fading. i see myself as a different person.
fish.
that says it all? what is important anymore? your feelings are just dead. negative. don't bother. why and who matters? i got no idea. what i feel is no longer felt. i'm immune? numb? i bear every way you treated me. is not good enough? that's the best i could do. i'm sorry for my imperfections.
being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. it's just that you decided to look beyond imperfections. i've been trying to work that out but i failed. yea i failed. happy or not i'm still myself? no i'm not.
would you be there when i need you? idk. would i be there when you need me? i hope so. can't you see all that i've done?
it's normal? no it's not. i'm fading. i see myself as a different person.
fish.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
nraily
woahh whole body is weak now and yet i'm still here to blog. i'm so hardworking ^^
new record = exactly 48 hours without sleeping O_O
early morning was real tired yet i went for badminton. the message made me smile broadly. care was there =) i hope this is the last time we're going through this. are we half the journey? what can stop us? faith is what i have! rawrrr
what is worth living and dying for? happiness? love? whatever it is, i want to go through my life without any coma or full stop =)
i wish i could be the one. the one who won't care at all. but being the one on the stand, i know the way to go, no one's guiding me. when time soaked with blood turns it back, i know it's hard to fall. confided in me was your heart. i know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.
yours truly, monkeymagic.
new record = exactly 48 hours without sleeping O_O
early morning was real tired yet i went for badminton. the message made me smile broadly. care was there =) i hope this is the last time we're going through this. are we half the journey? what can stop us? faith is what i have! rawrrr
what is worth living and dying for? happiness? love? whatever it is, i want to go through my life without any coma or full stop =)
i wish i could be the one. the one who won't care at all. but being the one on the stand, i know the way to go, no one's guiding me. when time soaked with blood turns it back, i know it's hard to fall. confided in me was your heart. i know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.
yours truly, monkeymagic.
1dih
bittersweet as in sugar in bitterness or bitterness in sugar? whatever it is, it doesn't really matter anymore.
went out today with chenpeng, gitying and edwyn for lunch, movie and pasar malam. at least it helped me spending my time rather than rotting at home? we watched marmaduke and yah, i assumed a lot will be like hah? what movie is that? indon? tamil? it's actually an english comedy movie whereby dogs in the movie can talk? not like those woof woof but in human language? meow. nah i'm not gonna talk on pasar malam cause it rained most of the time. stupid.
glass half empty or half full? oh sorry i couldn't differentiate it for you damn.
why people only hope for the best but not for the worst? hope for the worst for things will come better and you will be satisfied learn something biatch. i guess it's true that people will only appreciate when they lose it and then they start complaining. what the eff? grow up kid. you do not appreciate and complained when actually you are way ahead of others as in they don't even owned what you got? can you fucking appreciate what's right in front of you.
i want to buy something, give me something to buy!
what is right is right because god commands it. what are right are what god commands. god commands what is right because it is right. get a life.
can you fucking look at the fucking mirror before you fucking comment on others because you ain't any fucking fuck better.
fyl.
went out today with chenpeng, gitying and edwyn for lunch, movie and pasar malam. at least it helped me spending my time rather than rotting at home? we watched marmaduke and yah, i assumed a lot will be like hah? what movie is that? indon? tamil? it's actually an english comedy movie whereby dogs in the movie can talk? not like those woof woof but in human language? meow. nah i'm not gonna talk on pasar malam cause it rained most of the time. stupid.
glass half empty or half full? oh sorry i couldn't differentiate it for you damn.
why people only hope for the best but not for the worst? hope for the worst for things will come better and you will be satisfied learn something biatch. i guess it's true that people will only appreciate when they lose it and then they start complaining. what the eff? grow up kid. you do not appreciate and complained when actually you are way ahead of others as in they don't even owned what you got? can you fucking appreciate what's right in front of you.
i want to buy something, give me something to buy!
what is right is right because god commands it. what are right are what god commands. god commands what is right because it is right. get a life.
can you fucking look at the fucking mirror before you fucking comment on others because you ain't any fucking fuck better.
fyl.
Monday, June 7, 2010
ihni
time to update on my blog.
i'm back from langkawi and yes, i had a lot of fun with fun peoples. sadly i do not know whether i will still be in the same group with you all next year. in fact, it might be the last trip with them that will be flying off to uk? i appreciate every moment spent with you pips and i'm always looking forward for another trip with you guys. =) let's do this all over again yaw!
at times, i really feel that i'm hanging by a thread and could let go, giving up. it is really a tough time going through some ridiculous moments making it out of nothing. words are thrown without further thinking and they are hard to be taken back. whatever you say hurts me and i still clearly remember. when will i get to forget? idk. what's making me hold back from giving up? probably the reason why i had held on for so long and tight all this while.
i know i am not you, you are not me, for you will always be you and i will always be me. tolerance is much needed. thoughts have to be shared. problems are meant to be solved. as simple as abc is what i could say but doing it is more of a challenge.
life is a road i want to keep going. love is a river i want to keep flowing.
ain't perfect without you. rawrrr
i'm back from langkawi and yes, i had a lot of fun with fun peoples. sadly i do not know whether i will still be in the same group with you all next year. in fact, it might be the last trip with them that will be flying off to uk? i appreciate every moment spent with you pips and i'm always looking forward for another trip with you guys. =) let's do this all over again yaw!
at times, i really feel that i'm hanging by a thread and could let go, giving up. it is really a tough time going through some ridiculous moments making it out of nothing. words are thrown without further thinking and they are hard to be taken back. whatever you say hurts me and i still clearly remember. when will i get to forget? idk. what's making me hold back from giving up? probably the reason why i had held on for so long and tight all this while.
i know i am not you, you are not me, for you will always be you and i will always be me. tolerance is much needed. thoughts have to be shared. problems are meant to be solved. as simple as abc is what i could say but doing it is more of a challenge.
life is a road i want to keep going. love is a river i want to keep flowing.
ain't perfect without you. rawrrr
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